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Regrets Don't Define Me

No matter what I do in life I will have regrets. I will look back and reflect from something I could of done differently. 
I have made many mistakes these past few years. Pushing aside my hopes and dreams and letting someone else be the scape goat to my imperfections.
I am selfish, stubborn and can sometimes be lost in my world where I am physically their but not mentally active. 
I have been going non stop since I was 15 not knowing who I really am. Half of my life I have been fighting for a better life. Fighting for something real that isn't stressful, heartbreaking or makes me upset so much I rebel. 
I just need this time to figure it out. I can't give my all with being this overwhelmed. I can learn from my mistakes but now I want to correct the current ones and just live a little on the wild side with out feeling guilty.
I lost myself somewhere along the way. Maybe never had myself in the first place. I don't want to be fake and continue to live in a world where I smile but underneath it all I'm aching to get out. 
A new for everything begins within. One step, two steps as long as my hurdles get easier I can achieve anything. 1 day at a time.

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