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Happy New Year!! Happy 4 months!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! I will be honest I didn't make it near midnight nor did we plan to stay awake because sleep these days is so important. Having a baby really makes you miss sleep.
We truly love sleep when we can get it and I have managed to take more naps when she naps. There have been times she wakes more then once during the night and an occasional play time wakefulness! Even if I'm blurry eyed and somewhat conscious I can't help but play with her. Even if I repeat "it not play time Cailin it's sleeeeeeepy time baby."
it's worth it though because she is growing so fast I take every moment with her.
Cailin is growing like a weed! Cannot believe 4 months has already come and gone. I have to be honest though I love that she smiles all the time and is mostly a happy girl. She started giggling a couple weeks ago. Melts my heart listening to her. I think she is teething. She was grumpy today and just wanted mama.

Going back to work was not easy. But it's getting easier after a month. I need to figure out school and what I want to be when I grow up!! I'm having such a difficult time. I figured I would just finish my associates and hopefully something sparks my interest.

So it's obviously the the New Year and that comes with resolutions. I'm still wanting to reach my weight loss goal. I hate that I'm doing it at the beginning of the year. I kind of feel like its a cliche or like everyone else jumping on the bandwagon only to give up by February. However, since I did lose weight before pregnancy it does give me motivation to lose that 100 pounds!! I'm not proud but I actually have to lose 108!! Being pregnant was not a good reason to gain the weight back and then some. Spare me the crap line please.

It's going to be interesting juggling baby, hubby, school and work and dieting.
Wish me luck, this may be the hardest year yet. I have already decided the next time I am pregnant I will be consulting with a dietician. I don't want to play this game again.































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