Peeking Into My World

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! I will be honest I didn't make it near midnight nor did we plan to stay awake because sleep these days is so important. Having a baby really makes you miss sleep. We truly love sleep when we can get it and I have managed to take more naps when she naps. There have been times she wakes more then once during the night and an occasional play time wakefulness! Even if I'm blurry eyed and somewhat conscious I can't help but play with her. Even if I repeat "it not play time Cailin it's sleeeeeeepy time baby." it's worth it though because she is growing so fast I take every moment with her. Cailin is growing like a weed! Cannot believe 4 months has already come and gone. I have to be honest though I love that she smiles all the time and is mostly a happy girl. She started giggling a couple weeks ago. Melts my heart listening to her. I think she is teething. She was grumpy today and just wanted mama. Going back to work was not easy. But it...

In the beginning finding out I was pregnant was scary. As my pregnancy went on I was becoming more excited and a little nervous. It almost didn't feel real. I felt her moving and kicking and all the symptoms. Even after gathering everything we needed for her it still didn't feel like she was ever going to come. But thinking about it now, it went a whole lot faster then I thought. Everything from pregnancy to birth. By the time I hit 40 weeks and my stomach had dropped I knew it was getting closer.I had worked until 40.2 weeks and was physically exhausted. Everything hurt. Things were swelling. Shoes were no longer fitting and my back was giving me grief. I was no longer feeling scared. As I got closer to my due date I tried everything people had suggested. All the different foods, exercises and other such things. The day I started my maternity leave I was 40.3 weeks. I had an induction date set for September 5th but was hoping she would come on her own. I figured...

       As a woman I have always wanted to experience pregnancy. I have always wanted to have children. I didn't come from a big family. We have a lot of people waiting for her arrival. We cannot believe how loved our little stranger already is. We love her more than anything and we are excited to meet her. It's been a lot of  years of practice!       In the beginning we were trying to come up with fun ways to tell out parents. We told my father first. I was barely 8 weeks when I took a weekend and traveled to Rock Springs. I had arranged old and new pictures. I left open with a note saying "future picture of a grandson or granddaughter due September 2012." I recorded his reaction on my phone and it was priceless. He was shocked in his own way and so cute about the whole thing. All of a sudden I became this super pregnant woman that he kept trying to feed, because I was now eating for 2! (my father thinks old school for ...

There is a reason to my insanity. I have had a tremendous amount of drama and stress in my life. But what I take in with the bad I make equally better with the good in my life. I am generally a happy person. I have the love of my life by my side. I have family and friends who have been their for me when I truly needed them most. I try not to hold grudges and try to shake those who do me wrong. I am not a vindictive person. I don't do things to push buttons and go below the belts to hurt those I care about. I can always admit I am wrong. I can learn to grow up and say sorry. All I ask is people do the same and learn to respect me and my family. If I built a wall it's because the trust was knocked down. If I hurt you then tell me. I can take criticism. I have taken risks in my life and I take full responsibility for them. I have discovered that my trust has taken a seat. I feel more aware of my surroundings. I won't let people walk all over me. I have learned that fami...

I first began my blog and wanted to show my friends and family about my weight loss. I was willing to show the most embarrassing part of me. I decided to change things up because my life has changed. I thought I would reconnect with my friends and family and bring in a bigger part of my life. I still have a goal to lose 100 pounds. I ended the year 45 pounds lighter and gained something better! 2011 definitely ended on a high note! It will be the year I will never forget. Beginning with the birth of my beautiful blue eyed nephew McKean, whom I love and adore! I will never forget wanting to meet him for the first time. I fell hard for the little guy and every time I see his smile my heart melts and I love my sister and brother in law for making him. I am grateful for my blue eyed little guy. I have been ever so lucky to watch him grow and to be apart of his first year at life. I am one proud aunt! Even with the great happiness I had ...