I first began my blog and wanted to show my friends and family about my weight loss. I was willing to show the most embarrassing part of me. I decided to change things up because my life has changed. I thought I would reconnect with my friends and family and bring in a bigger part of my life. I still have a goal to lose 100 pounds. I ended the year 45 pounds lighter and gained something better!
2011 definitely ended on a high note! It will be the year I will never forget. Beginning with the birth of my beautiful blue eyed nephew McKean, whom I love and adore! I will never forget wanting to meet him for the first time. I fell hard for the little guy and every time I see his smile my heart melts and I love my sister and brother in law for making him. I am grateful for my blue eyed little guy. I have been ever so lucky to watch him grow and to be apart of his first year at life. I am one proud aunt!
Even with the great happiness I had sad times as well. Just before beginning my weight loss goals. I lost my uncle. I didn't have him in my life long enough, but had never been more grateful for such a sweet kind and loving guy. I am blessed to have the Atwoods in my life. David and I are incredibly grateful for how supportive they have been through our marriage. I am grateful for the 4 son's him and my aunt raised. How they taught them to listen with open hearts and never judge and always lend a helping hand. I am forever grateful.
I am not the perfect daughter. I have taught myself to take the bad and learn by my mistakes and start new beginnings. After years of butting heads I thought it would only be right to finally write out the reason I was "mad" at my mom. I wrote a detailed letter to her and for once didn't hold anything back. I may have come off harsh, but I was done with the drama and laid ever thing out on the table. I was done with the way she handled things and how she came off towards me. If I could say our relationship was normal, I would only be lying. It feels good to get it out. I have not written her off. The ball has been in her court for 7 months. I had suggestion to improve our relationship but she has too much pride and will never apologize for her actions or her words. I only have one mom. I get it. I need to be happy and grow up and move on. With or without. I am alive and my life is important. For once in my life it is about me. I am sorry. I deserve to be happy too. I am done dwelling on the past and I am ready to move on.
The fall was beautiful, I was on my life changing nutritional plan and loving every moment of it. By the end of the year I had lost 45 pounds. I was feeling a new kind of confidence and the energy was amazing! I really tested myself during the holidays with all the feasting. I got pretty sick the week before Thanksgiving. I have no idea what was wrong but I dropped 7 pounds and was hardly eating and had no appetite. So I was in the negative for once in my life after the fabulous day of gluttony.
I love you David-Life continues and gets better every moment you are with me.
Christmas was a different feeling. Marriages always have testing times. David and I have been married 7 years and we have been through enough that should have put us through divorce. But we are not weak and we learn everyday from one another. He is my best friend, my love and I care about him more that anything. We communicate probably more than most marriages. We have done everything to beat the odds of young divorce. I chose him and he chose me and like every marriage you need "new" things to keep both parties happy. Life can be interesting but in the end you have to remember why you chose each other and learn to fall in love over and over again. Listen to your better half because when you stop listening and stop paying attention minds start to wander.
THE DAY THAT CHANGED MY LIFE!!!
December 27th, 2011
After realizing the month was coming to an end, I was missing something. I counted on my calender over and over again. I counted on my fingers and then thought" hmmm maybe I will text my sister a question?" 30 minutes after that text and 1 hour after three home pregnancy tests. I was in utter shock. David and I have been together 8 years! I was laughing at our five year plan and shaking my fist to the sky. With shock I went home and gave David the results. What a "late" Christmas present we both got! We both sat stunned. Honestly, it was too shocking to comprehend but the changes I had been feeling were starting to make sense.
It took a few weeks for it to set in. It wasn't until that first ultrasound we saw our gummy bear. It was the cutest pic the ultrasound tech picked out and we both agreed that it looked like a gummy bear or a sour patch kid.
April 9th, 2012
After much anticipation David and I finally found out the sex of our gummy. A baby girl. A girl we talked about for years. We even had the named picked out since the time we were dating. Her name is Cailin
August 28th, 2011
The day I started my new healthy life and officially began my weight loss goal.
August 28th, 2012
My baby girl Cailin (Gummy Bear) is due.
I don't know if it is coincidence, but these two dates mean a lot to me. Two huge changes in my life. I have so much love and support from all my family. I am excited to become a new mom. I am excited for a new adventure. I always wanted to be a mom. I just didn't know when. I am no longer shocked. I am excited to meet the person moving around in me. I am excited to see our child that will look like us, dark hair and dark eyes. Will she have curly hair or straight hair? Will she be blessed with Davids eye lashes? Until then she remains a mystery.
One lucky momma to be.
2011 definitely ended on a high note! It will be the year I will never forget. Beginning with the birth of my beautiful blue eyed nephew McKean, whom I love and adore! I will never forget wanting to meet him for the first time. I fell hard for the little guy and every time I see his smile my heart melts and I love my sister and brother in law for making him. I am grateful for my blue eyed little guy. I have been ever so lucky to watch him grow and to be apart of his first year at life. I am one proud aunt!
Even with the great happiness I had sad times as well. Just before beginning my weight loss goals. I lost my uncle. I didn't have him in my life long enough, but had never been more grateful for such a sweet kind and loving guy. I am blessed to have the Atwoods in my life. David and I are incredibly grateful for how supportive they have been through our marriage. I am grateful for the 4 son's him and my aunt raised. How they taught them to listen with open hearts and never judge and always lend a helping hand. I am forever grateful.
I am not the perfect daughter. I have taught myself to take the bad and learn by my mistakes and start new beginnings. After years of butting heads I thought it would only be right to finally write out the reason I was "mad" at my mom. I wrote a detailed letter to her and for once didn't hold anything back. I may have come off harsh, but I was done with the drama and laid ever thing out on the table. I was done with the way she handled things and how she came off towards me. If I could say our relationship was normal, I would only be lying. It feels good to get it out. I have not written her off. The ball has been in her court for 7 months. I had suggestion to improve our relationship but she has too much pride and will never apologize for her actions or her words. I only have one mom. I get it. I need to be happy and grow up and move on. With or without. I am alive and my life is important. For once in my life it is about me. I am sorry. I deserve to be happy too. I am done dwelling on the past and I am ready to move on.
The fall was beautiful, I was on my life changing nutritional plan and loving every moment of it. By the end of the year I had lost 45 pounds. I was feeling a new kind of confidence and the energy was amazing! I really tested myself during the holidays with all the feasting. I got pretty sick the week before Thanksgiving. I have no idea what was wrong but I dropped 7 pounds and was hardly eating and had no appetite. So I was in the negative for once in my life after the fabulous day of gluttony.
I love you David-Life continues and gets better every moment you are with me. Christmas was a different feeling. Marriages always have testing times. David and I have been married 7 years and we have been through enough that should have put us through divorce. But we are not weak and we learn everyday from one another. He is my best friend, my love and I care about him more that anything. We communicate probably more than most marriages. We have done everything to beat the odds of young divorce. I chose him and he chose me and like every marriage you need "new" things to keep both parties happy. Life can be interesting but in the end you have to remember why you chose each other and learn to fall in love over and over again. Listen to your better half because when you stop listening and stop paying attention minds start to wander.
THE DAY THAT CHANGED MY LIFE!!!
December 27th, 2011
After realizing the month was coming to an end, I was missing something. I counted on my calender over and over again. I counted on my fingers and then thought" hmmm maybe I will text my sister a question?" 30 minutes after that text and 1 hour after three home pregnancy tests. I was in utter shock. David and I have been together 8 years! I was laughing at our five year plan and shaking my fist to the sky. With shock I went home and gave David the results. What a "late" Christmas present we both got! We both sat stunned. Honestly, it was too shocking to comprehend but the changes I had been feeling were starting to make sense.
It took a few weeks for it to set in. It wasn't until that first ultrasound we saw our gummy bear. It was the cutest pic the ultrasound tech picked out and we both agreed that it looked like a gummy bear or a sour patch kid.
April 9th, 2012
After much anticipation David and I finally found out the sex of our gummy. A baby girl. A girl we talked about for years. We even had the named picked out since the time we were dating. Her name is Cailin
August 28th, 2011
The day I started my new healthy life and officially began my weight loss goal. August 28th, 2012
My baby girl Cailin (Gummy Bear) is due. I don't know if it is coincidence, but these two dates mean a lot to me. Two huge changes in my life. I have so much love and support from all my family. I am excited to become a new mom. I am excited for a new adventure. I always wanted to be a mom. I just didn't know when. I am no longer shocked. I am excited to meet the person moving around in me. I am excited to see our child that will look like us, dark hair and dark eyes. Will she have curly hair or straight hair? Will she be blessed with Davids eye lashes? Until then she remains a mystery.
One lucky momma to be.
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